Short Story-003

They were the best of friends. They were like 'The Three Musketeers’. She was going out with one of the two guys for quite some time now. His best friend was his girl friend and this thought used to make him very upbeat and content. He felt like he was complete. They were deeply in love with each other. But this love was long gone and now the excitement in their relationship was no more. Unaware of this fact the other guy though pleased for both his friends used to feel the need of having something similar, something so spicy something so exciting in his life. He loved that girl which was his best friend and his best friend's girl friend but didn't want to ruin everything. One day while sitting alone with her he hugged her and with her image in his mind said "I wish I too had someone who loved me and whom I loved even more, someone who made me feel what I have never felt like before." The girl still with her arms around him thought in her mind I wish you could see, you could imagine that girl in me, I wish I wish and with that took a heavy breath.

'कुछ तो कमी है'

बेशख बैठा मैं उनके साथ ही हूँ

पर नजाने वहां मौजूद क्यूँ नहीं हूँ 

फिर लगा कुछ तो कमी है 

मेरे अन्दर एक अजीब सी हलचल मची हुई है 

अपनों के बीच  हूँ पर अपनापन  नहीं  है

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

नजाने क्या चल रहा है मेरे मन में 

बस यही जान ने की कोशिश में हूँ 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

महेनत तो बहुत करता हूँ 

पर उनके जैसी सफलता नहीं है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

ज़िन्दगी में पाया तो बहुत कुछ है 

पर वोह हासिल करने की ख़ुशी क्यूँ नहीं है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

ज़िन्दगी में करना तो बहुत कुछ है 

पर जो करता हूँ उस में दिलचस्पी नहीं  है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

रिश्ते नाते बहुतों से जोड़े है 

पर उन्न रिश्तों में मिठास नहीं है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

मुझे दोस्त तो बहुत कहते है 

पर उन्न दोस्तों की दोस्ती नहीं है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

उसको चाहता तो बहुत  हूँ 

पर नजाने क्यूँ सिर्फ चाहत है प्यार नहीं है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

देख तो बहुतकुछ  चूका हूँ 

पर अभी भी दुनिया देखि नहीं है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

लक्श्य भी है पाने का जूनून भी है 

पर उन्न तक रास्तें अभी साफ़  नहीं  है

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

सब कुछ  है तो ज़िन्दगी सही है 

कुछ  नहीं  है तो ज़िन्दगी यही है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है 

फिर लगा  कुछ तो  कमी है  

-अवनीश गुप्ता

HALF WAY THROUGH...!!!!

As I was sitting in a train on my way back to Delhi from Jaipur I realized that I have actually completed half of my engineering. Well my end semester examinations of second year of graduation just got over and the next three months are to be spend at home, yes three months off from college..!!!  I always had aspired to become an engineer. Looking out of the train’s window and seeing the trees speeding  past me I realized I how similar to these trees my time during the last two years in The LNMIIT  had passed away so quickly. Last couple of years has not only made me acquire and develop my engineering skills only but much more than that. It has journey been I would say worth living for. Staying away from home for the first time and being exposed to the open real world it helped me understand the dynamics of it.

First of all talking about the hostels itself I would say that hostel life is simply awesome. Infact I would say that hostel life is an integral part of engineering, without it it’s just incomplete. It just gives you and takes nothing. By giving I mean to say it gives you the experience to be on your own, have a firsthand experience of what it’s like to be independent. It helps you develope as a person, realize the true character of this world. You are bound to make some good friends as has been the case with me, On the lighter site the fun and the thrills it gives you is just incomparable to anything and that is what makes hostel life worth it. Infact writing about this has made me nostalgic about my own hostel experiences during the last two years. If I sit down to write everything that has happened uptill now I would end up writing a book.

Reading up till now one might feel that engineering is all about having fun but I would like to say that it’s not at all like that my friend, with all the long and tiring lectures, regular assignments that you don’t have a clue about and of course the dreadful examinations engineering is one hell of a journey and it’s no child play. If at one end it’s the fun of staying in a hostel then on the other hand there is this huge amount of pressure to perform and achieve something to make yourself worthwhile. The parents wants you give a constant performance, get good grades and besides that there are your own expectations from yourself. Many students who have the potential just take the wrong path during these crucial years. Staying in a hostel also adds pressure especially when your friends are performing well and you are not!!!

 One thing I have cherished most about the last two years is that there have been numerous instances when I have been down and out, all alone by myself, but I still managed to rise up again. I feel life is all about this only, to discover about yourself, your strengths and weaknesses. With engineering another thing that becomes an important part of your life is your CPI i.e. cumulative point index if anyone of you doesn’t know about it. For some their CPI is a matter of pride while for some it’s just the opposite. My advice to all of you out there would be never ask three things in life a woman’s age, a man’s salary and an engineer’s CPI !!!  Well I would like to stop here right now as engineering life is something I can go on and on and unfortunately my station is here. It’s times to go home and with two years gone and two to go I have many expectations. The next two years I hope will be even better, something special something that can be cherished for the rest of my life because you get only one such opportunity.